Kylea

Smosh, they’ve changed my life in so many ways. I’ve never had many friends and still don’t, I used to never be happy.  Then one day a few years back I was bored on Saturday, and was scrolling through Youtube. I saw a top viewed video called “Boxman” I decided to watch it because it looked obscure. I was then giggling throughout the whole video; I decided to look at more of their videos. After I watched about 20 I looked at my phone to see it was already 2:00 a.m. The next day I watched every single video, and started to love Smosh more and more. I then got twitter, and that’s when I started feeling so much better. To this day I doubt I can repay them for all that they’ve done for me.  They are my heroes, my inspirations, and I hope someday I will be loved by as many people that love them. So if Smosh actually comes across this, and actually reads it....




 I would just like to say, Smosh…You are such an inspiration to me; no one will ever be as great as you two, Ian and Anthony. And I want to say I love you, and thank you for all you’ve done. You guys mean so much to me.

Raquel

I really don't know how to start this so I guess I'll just start from the beginning.
I was 10. 
Yes I know really young. 
But they helped brighten up my weeks. I actually discovered their videos by clicking on a related video to a Shane Dawson video.
But I really didn't depend on them until I was 13.
Let's just say in the month of October I have lost both my grandparents, my two dogs and my pet bunny that I was so close with. 
You're probably thinking "they're just animals." 
But they were much more... 
When I was in 7th grade I didn't have... Any friends, my sister wouldn't even talk to me.
So everyday when I got home... Just to see someone want to be around me made me happy.
Pathetic I know.
My grandparents... When they died just weeks after my pets death was an even bigger stab in the heart. I was really close to them too. It was expected that my grandma was going to die soon but still... You should know how it is to loose a loved one.
A month passed and I wasn't doing the best in school.
My parents started yelling at me and this made me happy.... Cuz they weren't yelling at each other for once.
In November... My mom filed for divorce.
Another stab.
But to make it even greater my mom... For what ever reason would take out her anger on me... So I was occasionally abused until I ran away from home in December.
December 3rd.
I went as far as to getting on the main highway until my neighbor driving her son back from kindergarten saw me and took me back home to where my mom wasn't happy.
My mom eventually stopped talking to me. 
December 6th. Me and my sisters birthday.
My mom ignored me.
While my sister was blowing out the birthday candles I was in my room, crying.
Things had gotten so bad with my dad that he sometimes wouldn't even come home.
Things had also gotten so bad with my mom the only time she talked to me is when I'd threaten suicide.
This eventually lead to therapy.
But weirdly I never cut... Most likely all these stories mention how they've cut themselves...but I hadn't.
Anyway a year has passed and we've ended up in October again... That horrible month.
I have yet to make any friends and my parents were fighting constantly.
October 13th... When I decided to check my subscription box on YouTube.
I watched a smosh video... "Smosh Snatchers" 
It was the first time... In a whole year I actually smiled. 
This of course led me to another video... And another video... And so on.
It was...Happy.
Sooner or later I went to school... Smiling.
Kristen. Kristen was the first friend I made at that school. 
I still remember that day. I was at my locker...
"Hey Raquel right?"
"Yeah. Whats your name?"
"Kristen. I was just wondering if you'd like to sit with us during lunch?"
"Yeah sure."
"okay cool! See you."
This of course led me to meeting her friends. And they all said they loved my "jokes" and how "funny" I was... But all I was doing was quoting smosh videos.
I eventually showed them smosh and Kristen said 
And I quote
"No wonder you like them so much"
~
This part really makes me happy....
My dad (December 18th) asked my mom out on a date.
Which lead to anther date.
Which lead to my mom canceling the divorce papers.
It's also the date my mom started really talking to me again.
I remember all these dates cuz they're very important to me.
Around January my mom brought a puppy and we named him "Rocky" he's a boxer and I think i'v shown him to everyone.
Every week I would log on and watch another Smosh video.
Ian's and Anthony's humor really helped me through a lot. 
They don't know me but I owe them so much.
Whenever I'm depressed I watch them and my face instantly lights up.
It was just this year I got a twitter... I have made so many smoshy friends on there that I'm even happier now.
I can never repay them for what they did for me. I guess all you need to make it in life is happiness. And who ever knew making me happy started with a click.

Thank you smosh, Ian. Anthony.
Truley thank you.

-Raquel

Alaana

Hi there. Ian, Anthony, if you’re reading this right now, I want you to know that I love you guys more than life. You mean the world to me. And I know this story is REAAAAALLY long, but please read it. It'll take you 5 minutes. Please? :3 (I put a kitty face so you must read it now) And sorry about not having perfect writing grammar, my head has been really messed up lately, and I don't feel like it going through it to proofread, so sorry about the mistakes and stuff.
I never though i would make it through the fact that after 6th grade my parents decided that they were going to switch me to another school where I knew no one. I had planned my whole life with my best friends that I’ve had since 2nd or 3rd grade. I had spent most of my life with some of my best friends, some we went back to when we were barely a few months old. So I wasn’t to happy about this whole thing. It didn't help my brothers would say things “get the hell out you fat ugly worthless woman.” and much other stuff was happening to me that I won't explain because... i just don't like to think about it. And they starting flooding in; suicide thoughts. almost everyday i broke down in my room and said i was gonna do it but always ended up not doing it. the abuse and hurt only got worse over june and july, but one day, on a sunday of august 2010, my brothers did the same to me. as usual i ran into my room and started crying. but this day it would be different. it would be my first attempt on suicide. i’m not gonna really go into detail about how i tried to commit suicide, because that doesn’t affect the story. however, it did end up to be a failed attempt. i passed out but didn’t die, which really only depressed me more. When I started school in September I hated it because no one liked me even if i did try to talk to someone. however, in that first month i met one of my bestfriends, who is like a sister to me, adriana lorente. Anyways, stuff got better at school but my family still abused me. i figured out my dad didn’t love or care about me because i heard him say it, my mother had started gone almost insane and couldn’t listen to any of her children. my brothers continued to physically and mentally hurt me. and when i say physically i don’t mean a brother-sister fight. it was them brutally abusing me and I had no way to defend myself. I'd be bruised, there'd be blood. I'm not gonna go into detail, but on of the days my brothers were abusing me, he threw me down, called me a stupid blonde worthless bitch. It wasn't the first time he called me that, but there was something about the way he said it that made it hurt a million times worse. It felt like a war was going on inside of me. I was confused, so I for some reason decided to punch a hole through his door. I grabbed my jacket and ran. As far away from home as I could. See, I live in a very ghetto town where a blonde, white, 12 year old girl like me slouched down by a brick wall beneath the street lights at 12 at night, isn’t going to do so well. Going out, I knew that, but I needed an escape, or else I was going to cut, or even have attempt another act of suicide. I knew I might’ve gotten raped or kidnapped, but I needed fresh air and an escape from the horrible people i knew as my family.

In december; my life changed. everything changed. i watched a video on youtube. from two guys. who were hilarious. who made me laugh when i never thought i could even smile again. their names? anthony danger padilla and ian firetrucking hecox. they have changed my life in so many ways words cannot describe it. nothing can. they are my world, and if they had never started making videos on youtube i don’t know where i would be today or if i’d even be alive. they have saved me from suicide multiple times. they have made me feel happy in the worst of times when i felt like everyone in the world hated me. when i watch their videos, everything seems to fade away; the depression, the scars on my arms, my anorexia, and all the other bad things in life.
To Smosh:
I love you guys. more than anything. though i haven’t met you guys i still feel like you’re the family i never had. just… i really don’t know what to say, you guys have saved my life and i really don’t know how to thank you. i wish i could repay you guys back somehow for everything that you’ve done for me. i don’t think they could ever invent any words to describe how much i thank you people. i know this doesn’t really seem like an interesting story or anything, but, it’s 100% true. it’s hard to explain everything. I hope to meet you guys one day so that i could at least thank you in person. please don’t ever ever ever stop making videos because you guys are my inspiration and hope. my world. my everything, not only to me, me thousands of other people. I haven't cut in 4 months, i have been healthily eating, and I haven't even thought about suicide. It's all because of you guys. so when you guys feel down, know that people around the world have had their lives saved because of you. they are your biggest fans and know everything about you guys, because you’re that awesome. once again.
I love you smosh. more than the world, more than anything.
p.s if i do find out you guys read this I’m gonna freak the fuck out and possibly have a seizure. but a seizure would be worth it. jk. i won’t really have a seizure…. well this is awkward but BAI. LOOOOOOOOOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
- alanna vaughn. the biggest fan of smosh, ever.

Cline S.

My name is Caroline aka Cline. I'm 17. I will tell you my story.

There was a time when I was really depressed. I was crying all the time and I was always sad. But I pretended to my friends and my family that I'm fine. 

Why? Because no one would care. And if i'll tell them what's wrong, they couldn't do something for me. Nobody can.

My life was a nightmare, and it still is a nightmare but less than before. And this nightmare began during my childhood: 

I've been beaten, mistreated, treated like shit, tortured, bullied, and ... This happened everyday. It was my sister. I still don't know why she did that to me :'(

Also, my parents fought in front of me all the time, and beat me sometimes too. They didn't like me... They don't like me. But I prefered watching them fight than being tortured. 

And I was just a child. 

I grew up with this horrible pictures in my head. I've lost my childhood and a part of my adolescence. 

When this monster is gone, I felt better but those scars on my skin make me remember what she did to me. This haunts me every day, every night. I can't stop thinking about what she did. 

These horrible memories began to be stronger. I wanted to delete it. I couldn't live quietly without thinking about it. 

But the pain inside me hurt me more than if I cut myself. That's why I didn't cut myself or do that kind of stupid thing, because it is useless and I think that I've been tortured enough. I don't want to feel the pain anymore. 

I just wanted to sleep. Forever. 

About Smosh:

I remember this day, I was desperate and really depressed. I wanted to change my mind. So I decided to watch some videos on Youtube. And then (I still don't know why I choose this video) but when I watched it, I felt so good, I laughed so hard, I felt so much better! I don't know how to explain you what I felt, but it was so good!

And this video which changed my life was a Smosh video (i don't remember which video it was) because after that, I began to watch every Smosh videos, all day and night!

I could hate their videos and forget them but it was not the case!  (Moreover, some friends tried to make me smile but they failed, nobody could make me laugh!) But SMOSH did it! I think that it is because we have the same sense of humor! And that's why I continued to watch their videos.

Thanks to them I began to apreciate life again! 

It is amazing how the laughter can change our moods... and our lives!

And now I want to live those wonderful moments again and again and forever! 

I need to laugh; I need to watch Smosh videos! They are my drugs! And now I'm addicted to them! I can't stop watching their videos ♥

I can't tell how much they changed my life! No, more than that: THEY SAVED MY LIFE! 

Oh and by the way, if they will stop making videos it doesn't matter! I will not kill myself just because one day they'll stop everything! I'm stronger than that! But I will be very sad :( 

Ok, now know you know everything! (... uuh not really, I didn't write all my life because I will started to cry and think about those memories (again)...)

Anyway the thing is that I can't tell how much I love Smosh and how much they saved me! I love them so much!

I'm so grateful to them! I would like to meet them and thanks them for changing my life! I needed this change! 

They are the best thing that ever happen in my life. :')

God bless them! ♥

Steph

My name is Steph(: I am 14 years old and live in Canada, B.C !
 When I started to regularly watch Smosh, it was the begining of 2011. (I had seen some of their older videos before, Boxman and Twilight New Moon Deleted Scenes 2 but didnt know it was them at the time ) Everything was a mess. I found it hard to smile and laugh, and just be happy. I was at constant war with my parents, and struggling in school. I felt like none of my friends really understood
my problems and I felt really alone.It was a scary feeling, it was like I was loosing myself. I was surfing youtube one day and I came across a Smosh video, I think it might have been one of their, If ___ were real. I just remember laughing for the first time in what seemed like forever. I made a twitter account so I could ask LWS questions, and I came across the
Smosher Family" Everyone was so nice to me and I felt like I belonged somewhere. 
         When Smosh replied to me for the first time I FREAKED out, I felt so happy that the people making me laugh every week, and who created the best online family ever, actually noticed me, I almost cried of  happiness. Ian and Anthony made it eaiser for me to breath, like a weight was lifted of my chest.  I started slowly to turn things around, I picked up my school grades, and began re-connecting with all my friends and family. I cant thank Smosh enough for what they have done for me, they made me laugh when nobody else could, and pulled me out of the rut I had created. I had something to look foward to everyweek, a new IIS, LWS, and the regular Smosh video. Laughter really is the best medicine.

Thank you Ian and Anthony. <3  I tried to keep this short, but if I
could I would write a full book about how you helped me. And to the Smosher Family, I dont know
how I could live  without you guys.

Rachel I

Hi there. This is my Smosh story. Smosh has changed so many lives; including my own. So here is where my Smosh story begins:

            It all started six years ago. I was nine years old at the time. Even at nine I was bullied very often. I was not just bullied by other nine year olds. No, I was bullied by 17 year old teens. I remember, people used to make fun of me; calling me “retarded, stupid, dumbass, whore, (and yes I was nine)” People even told me to go kill myself. I remember when I was walking home from school. This is the worst memory ever. So, I was walking home and a bunch of teens, who were about sixteen or seventeen years old. I didn’t live far from school; about a block or two away. My mother trusted me and thought nothing was going to happen to me. She was wrong. These teens decided pick on me. Calling me all sorts of names. They grabbed me by the hair and started choking me. That is, until the police came. They were ran away. Meanwhile, my mom was worried sick. I had to go to therapy, and I couldn’t come to school for a month. I was an emotional wreck; nothing could have made me laugh. My mom was crying so much. I heard her. I was on the computer and I heard her. I was on Youtube, and I saw a video by two guys. I clicked on the link and it was Smosh lip-syncing the pokemon theme song. I started laughing. Their acting was hilarious!! I watched their mortal combat video and they were so funny! My mom rushed in the room and was crying happy tears. I was laughing. Smosh has utterly pulled me out of my depression. Here I am, six years later. Still at my computer watching Smosh every day. This proves that Smosh can do anything for people. 

They’ll make us laugh all of the time. And so this, my friends, is my Smosh story. 

Jennifer P.

Why, Hello there! Some of you may know me and some of you may not. Well let me just say if it weren't for Smosh... you wouldn't be reading this.

I grew up in a good environment. No drinking or smoking. But lately things hadn't been right. My family acted like they didn't approve of me. I was receiving hate. I was bullied in the 6th and 7th grade. At the end of 7th grade I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to end my life.

I was ready. I didn't care of the consequences. When the time has come I was about to cut when my phone rang. I received a message that one of my favorite channels uploaded. And no it wasn't Smosh (back then it was iJustine) I was like "What the Heck" might as well watch my last video. I watched it and I saw in related videos of Smosh.

Smosh? Hahaha they look stupid.

So I clicked on their video which was POKEMON REVENGE SONG!!!

I watched and laughed. I was shocked. This is the first time in ages I laughed. But the line at the end of the video was what really caught me.

"This video is dedicated to the ones who saw the original video and who supported us since 2005" It went something like that.

I was like since 2005? Original Video? I couldn't help myself but I have to check it out. I did. I laughed a cried. If I killed myself I would of been dead. I immediately subscribed and from then one I couldn't wait for new videos to come.

Smosh. Ian or Anthony. If you're reading this I want to thank you. THANK YOU for putting a smile on my face. Thank you for understanding that I could face my problems with a laugh. 

I love you..... Thanks <3

Lily

I'm nearly a teenager. I don't cut and overall I'm a pretty happy person. I'm ignored at school; Most of the girls that hang around in their little group, don't even know my name. I'm not usually myself around people I'm not close with, so I kinda creep them out xD. But then I found Smosh. This has been said a million times before but, they changed my life! Literally. Ian and Anthony are probably people I can really relate to. I swear we act the same and we have the same humor(: I watched more and more of their videos and began to really feel like I was getting to know them. I started to learn more about them!


 I made a Twitter account not long after that. It was the account I used to talk to other people who loved smosh as much as I did. I've made SO many amazing friends because of Ian and Anthony. Many of which know me better than the friends I have at school, who are all caught up in Justin Bieber and One Direction-_- Time has passed and I've honestly become more confident. I wear my smosh shirt in public, I joined a Drama group at my theatre! I've always been a quirky person, and now I'm not afraid to act that way around people. I couldn't care less about popularity anymore. Smosh has inspired me so much! I know that if I ever feel depressed in the future, there will always be a smoshy family there for me^-^ I feel as though I'm a part of something now; and I am SO thankful! I'm determined to meet Ian and Anthony. I'm saving up for Vidcon, ESPECIALLY so I can meet them. I may only see them for like half a minute but it would be the best half minute of my life; meeting my heros. Also, I scare people by singing each of their songs at the top of my lungs, because I'm that hardcore.




 If you're reading this, thank you for everything(: <3<3<3<3<3

Sofia

My whole life I have never been accepted. I was either to artsy or to different. I have been a smosher for almost a year now, this past year has been a living hell. This is because my mom ignores me and only plays mother when she wants to. Because of this and all of that other middle school bullshit piled up and it got to my head. I almost attempted to kill myself. As I shook there with a bottle of pills in my hand a thought came to my mind. If I kill myself I will never have a chance to meet Smosh or see there next video (alive). So even though my life is a living hell right now, I know that I have smosh. And i guess it all is worth it. 
So I will hold my head up high as I can and I will show everyone that there is more to me that meets the eye (sorry transformers lol). So that's how smosh has changed my life.


 And smosh if your reading this...thank you cuz without you I probably would be dead by now. 

Myra

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I know you're most likely not to read this, but it is worth a try. You all mean so much to me. I may be just an annoying fangirl to you, but you guys are my life. I've never had many friends, and have always had a rough life. I'll start at the beginning.


The first nine years of my life I was abused by my father. When I was eight I was suicidal. At nine, we moved away suddenly. Three quarters of everything I owned had to be left behind. My dogs and cats had to be left, my friends and to be left, and I've never seen my dad since. We were living with my mom's coworker for sixth months before we even found a place to live. When I was eleven, I finally found out about YouTube. I wasn't a huge fan of it, so I didn't get on as much. I had made a couple new friends, but then we were forced to move AGAIN. We packed up and I had to leave all my new friends behind. In seventh grade I met my now best friends. I was very happy, but tended to get stressed a lot. At the beginning of eight grade (2011) my good friend Elsa had showed me a Smosh video, Charlie the Drunk Guinea Pig. I wasn't in love at first, but Elsa (being the stubborn, persistent person she is) kept telling me to watch more. After watching around ten videos, I was hooked. Every week I feel loved because I have something to look forward to.


Ever since I found about you guys, I feel wanted, loved, and very happy. Whenever I am depressed, I watch your guys' videos and I am immediately laughing, and in my own little paradise. You have effected my life in ways I never thought possible. You bring me joy, and humor. I think differently, I act differently, I have many friends (even if we are ALL outcasts in school) and I have never felt better.


Even if my family has problems, and no money, and we struggle a lot, I can get away from it all by watching your videos. Like I said, you don't know me, but I sure know you. Does that make me sound like a stalker? I don't know; but I just want to say, THANK YOU. You make me feel loved. Thank you.


P.S. On the Smosh account (wasn't sure if it was Ian or Anthony) I was tweeted, and that made me so happy. I was crying, and shaking, and barely able to speak. It made my LIFE. :)


I love you-you're my LIFE <3

Emily

When I found Smosh it changed my life. At the time i found them I had just lost my best friend,

My cousin, and my aunt was dying of cancer.To top it all off i was verry ill. My best friend had

to move all the way accross the country because of her mother's death.a few weeks later we recieved

a call that my cousin who i had become verry close with had committed suicide.I began having BIG

problems with anxiety and depression.I began cutting myself...I tried to hide it but my mom still

managed to find out. I wasnt in school due to my illness and sitting in my room all day wasn't

helping my anxiety or depression. My parents decided I needed to go to a councelor...however

I didn't talk to her verry much. One night I was sitting in my room just browsing youtube and randomly clicked

on a smosh vid. This was the first time I had smiled in weeks. My councelor and I were discussing ways that

I could calm myself down so I wouldin't go back to my old self. I immediately thought of Smosh and began

explaining to her who they were and what they did. She told me that it was a good idea.

 Eventually my aunt did pass...and when nobody else was there for me I knew i could count on smosh to cheer me up.

Verry recently my grandmother passed away...we had always been verry close and i loved her.

I thought that nothing could help me...but then I thought back to how I used to be and remembered my

chat with my counselor.I pulled out my laptop and clicked on a smosh video.While everyone else was grieving

I knew that my grandmother would be proud of me for staying strong and trying my hardest to move on

by using something i love.

  Thank you Ian and Anthony<3 You saved me and I will forever be greatfull to you guys:)

Rachel

I tend to get sick... a lot. I always have fevers, coughs, sore throats, headaches, and runny noses. I always feel horrible and never want to do anything, but I have the best sick day routine ever! I put on my favorite pjs, curl up in my bed, and watch Smosh. For Hours. 


They always make me forget the pain and aches in my body and they make me laugh! Some times laughter really is the best medicine.

Chloe

Hi! My name is Chloe. Here's the Story of how Smosh changed my life!


I struggle with Anxiety. Juggling School and other priorities is hard and I find myself unhappy and very stressed out most of the time. This last summer (June 9, 2011) I found Smosh.
 I would stay up till four in the morning watching videos that I've never seen and keeping up with the new ones they would post. Soon I got caught up with all their videos and I began to find myself much happier. Smosh always puts a smile on my face when ever I'm feeling down. Smosh has helped me with my anxiety and they make me feel like I have nothing to worry about. Ian and Anthony are my heroes. They're such kind people who never seem to let me down!


 I'm super thankful for them and I love them a lot! Thank you Smosh you help me everyday! Oh, and please keep doing what you're doing because you're fantastic!

Anonymous

Hi. I remember when I used to be depressed. When my whole

world was just empty. I used to cry myself to sleep every night.

I hated everything. I've cut so many times, and felt the need to

kill myself. It's not like anyone cared right? People told me I was

 weird. And even my friends were ashamed of hanging out with

me because I was the 'different' one. We have a screwed up 

society. Where people judge each other. I just wanted to leave

this fucked up world.

   Then, this Little thing called Smosh came along. These two

adorable guys lit up my world. The first video I've seen by them 

was 'Amazing New Drink' They made me smile within the first

30 seconds in the video.

    For once in my life I actually felt happy. I started watching more

and more of their videos and I was hooked. Smosh became my

life from then on. Video, by Video my love for them has gradually

grown. Ian and Anthony make my world complete. 

    After a few more months of Smoshing, I finally decided to make

a twitter. Twitter is where I keep it real. Everybody's fake on Face-

book. I followed some few Smoshers, All the Smosh accounts, etc.

    I started to read some Smoshers tweets. And I was surprised 

how we all relate. Most of us has been through depression at one 

point. And somehow, with our past, we all connected. Without 

Smosh I wouldn't be the girl I am today.

   Since Smosh, I've become friends with people I actually have

in common with. Smosh made me feel good. Watching there 

videos made me laugh hysterically. And during class, I'd giggle

to myself about something Ian had said in a video. People 

would look at me like I was crazy, but if they only knew. I used

to be sad and insecure. But now, I'm Happy and confident.

  

Even though you'll never read this, Thanks Ian and Anthony.

I know this is Cliche, but Smosh saved my life. 

Mikayla

Eh. I guess Smosh... er- changed my life. For an example, I no longer have a life... So yeah...  Thanks Smosh.. Anywho, when I watched Smosh, it was like 2007. Me being a total noob on YouTube is fun... I guess. :P But yeah, I wasn't depressed when I watched Smosh, I'm one of the people who watched it because they were funny and not because of depression. ...God I'm so rude.... BUT.... Yeah... IF YOU'LL EXCUSE ME. I HAVE A POKEMON BATTLE TO ATTEND TO... PIKACHU IS BEING A BITCH...

Hehe, anyways. Baii.

....Chesticles. Teehee...

Rhianna

So like everyone else, smosh has changed/ saved my life so significantly. Maybe not like a lot of peoples but in a special way. 

When I found smosh nothing was really wrong with me. I wasn't depressed or cutting. I was actually in a good state. 
They actually made me forget about most of the world and so that helped majorly. I'd watch their videos everyday and I looked forward to the weeks. 
During winter break, I started getting depressed for no reason. There were nights that I would just start crying so much and things would set me off. I'd vent on twitter cause I don't have anyone in real life to talk to. So many people helped me become happier and I'd forget why I was sad. 
On Christmas eve, something happened that I'm not getting into major detail due to the fact you're probably already bored.. But after it happened I laid on the floor for two hours straight crying. My family saw me like this and tried to talk to me but I wouldn't speak. They told me to watch some smosh cause they know I love them SOOO much! I did and I instantly got better. But going more into my break and after, my depression worsened. It came to the point of me cutting myself several times and I was two years clean. 
It would have been more if it wasnt for the people on twitter, they cared. 
So yeah smosh saved me, they brought me the best people I could ask for. And for that I could never thank them enough. 


Thanks smosh<3

Lizz

Hai! My name is Lizz. I'm 13. I am a smosh addict. :) And here's my little story for ya. 

I've suffered with depression for the past year. My life is a bit of a mess, and I've been trying to clean it up for a while, but it hasn't worked out for me. I've sadly turned to self-harm in many different forms. Cutting, starving, and just trying to make myself feel pain in anyway possible. I'm bullied for being different, and not as beautiful as the others around me. I'm pretty sure it was about the beginning of August that I had actually very highly considered ending my life. I mean, I didn't think anyone would care, because at that time no one would. So I invited the only people I loved over, just so I could have some time with them before I left. It was a Thursday, which meant for my smosh fangirl friend, a new Lunchtime With Smosh. She grabbed my computer the moment she came over and watched it. I watched it too, just so I could get as much time as I could with her. And for the first time in months, I laughed. Like, legit laughed. By the time I was over my stomach hurt. I was smiling. It almost felt weird, but I was happy about it. We watched IIB, LTWS, and just plain old smosh videos for about 3 hours. I was still watching even when they got tired of it. I never had to say goodbye to them for the last time.

I watched smosh videos all of the time. Come home from school? Watch smosh videos. Need to sleep? Oh well, watch smosh videos. Want to cut? Watch smosh videos. Want to end your life? Watch. Smosh. Videos. It's like my remedy, and I love smosh so much.

So then I made a twitter, cause I had heard that smosh replied to people there. And after about a month, I did get a reply from them. It filled me up with so much happiness. I kept the twitter for that purpose and got many tweets from the smosh account. But I still had those scary suicidal thoughts. I still cut. I was scared I would never be happy for more than when I was watching. Until December.

December was probably the highlight of my depression time. I saw Ian and Anthony on tinychat, which was the only think I thought about for weeks. Corey (teleporting fat guy) had told me he loved me. Ian tweeted me a few times. But the most special thing to me was when he replied to me on my post about depression. Those words are the most special thing in the world to me. They've helped me so much. So, so, much. I wrote the advice and put it on my wall. I wrote the advice on a piece of paper and don't go anywhere without it. It's the thing I look at if I ever feel alone or that I'll never get through the day.

I felt like smosh knew me. They'd tweeted me many times. I felt like they liked me. And that made me smile.

Smosh has basically got me through everything since I first started watching. They've got me through all the name calling and bullying. They got me through my grandmother's death. They got me through my best friend trying to commit suicide 7 times. They got me through all the pain I've felt. I feel like I owe my life to them.

Please NEVER stop smiling, laughing, being stupid, talking, and most importantly, PLEASE DON'T STOP MAKING VIDEOS.

You guys are life savers, and I don't mean the candy. Thank you. So much.

Elena

So this is the story of how smosh changed my life.

  When i was 4 my mom beat me up many times cause i wouldn't listen to her and that i used to go on my laptop a lot. I cried several times and was unhappy until the age 6. She always locked me in my room. Then at school, my best friend Kate in 4th grade showed me some old smosh videos that made me start using the internet more. I got a feeling of where i wanted to laugh.......I've never been this happy before in my life.....I started talking, laughing, and and acting much more nicer. But before all that, i honestly was thinking of killing myself cause i thought i had the worst life ever.....I've cried and cried several times but i started cutting when i was 10. My cuts have healed but there is still marks on my arm. After i turned 11 i stopped crying and my depression got over.....my mom stopped beating me up and i felt happy. By that day, i knew Ian and Anthony changed my life completely. I felt more alive and happy. I actually stopped thinking of killing myself. So i would like to thank them....for everything they've done. I love you guys.
Reasons why smosh changed my life:

1. They make me laugh; my tears of pain turned into tears of joy.
2. After i started acting more happy from watching smosh videos, my mom didn't beat me up since then.
3. I started talking about smosh at school and now, i'm the class clown of my class. :)
4. Because of smosh, i stopped cutting and crying.
5. I actually felt like i meant something to this world.
6. I've never been so loved and happy since i've stared watching smosh vids.
7. My whole life turned from a dark cloud to a sunny world.
8. Ian and Anthony mean everything to me.
9. They made me laugh and changed my life A LOT.
And
10...... SMOSH RULES.

 I would like to thank Ian and Anthony for changing my life, making me happy, and making me stop cutting and crying. I love you guys. ♥

    -Elena

P.S. I don't care if you like it or not.. I'm just telling my feelings to smosh. I love them. ♥♥♥ :)

Lanie

Okay(: well, my story is long.

For starters when I was born my mother was a drug addict. My dad was always out of the picture. I was living in a one bedroom house with my mom and new born brother, I guess you could say I wasn't  treated correctly, so after a while my dad remarried my stepmom and she has been taking care of me.. It's difficult now because I'm still not treated like a teenage girl should be. 

I was so depressed I had eating dissorders and keep in mind both of my parents are in the military, so they were always gone, and four years ago I saw smosh on the computer and I have been obsessed with them ever since. 

And a big thanks to smosh(:<3 I love them.

Claudia

How did smosh help me? Well, I guess you can say they saved my life.

A little over a year ago, my life was a mess. I was depressed and there was no one I could trust enough to talk to about my problems... I went on youtube and was searching random things when an IanH video popped up. That video made me laugh like I hadnt in a long time. It wasnt a fake laugh like usual, I was actually happy for those few minutes, while I was watching those two guys be hilarious and retarded (no offense XD). I fell in love after I found the smosh channel. After a few months of watching smosh, I decided to make a Twitter account. I mean, why not? It's not like I had to tell anyone or like anyone would ever find out about it! I followed all the smosh accounts and a little after that, a few smoshers followed me. I started talking to some people and they were the nicest and most accepting people I had ever met! I finnaly felt accepted, and like I actually belonged. 

None of the crappy things about my life went away. Both my parents were still unemployed, my dad still lived on the other side of the world with his wife (who I hate), I was still getting bullied at school, etc... But at least I could run away from all that and just be happy and laugh for a few minutes, while watching Ian and Anthony be themselves.

 I started cutting before watching smosh, and they were the reason I stopped. A few months ago, I was in my tinychat room with some of my best smosher friends, and we were hanging out and having fun! As a joke, we tweeted Ian the link, and kept on being retarded and having fun by ourselves. A guest went in the room and changed his name to "ian". We all started laughing and called him a troll, cause I mean... Why would Ian ever want to go to our tinychat, right? Just so we could laugh a little more, I gave him the broadcasting password. He said his camera wasnt working and we laughed even harder. Then the name ian appeared on camera, and so did Ian's face. We all froze for a few secounds thinking it was a picture or a video, untill he waved at us... I actually started crying and shaking, because that felt like a dream come true. I was meeting the person who saved my life. My inspiration. That same night, Corey (aka Teleporting Fat Guy) and Ethan (aka Harry) went on tinychat, and Anthony went on the next day. For a few days, I couldnt think of anything else, and I felt like I was in heaven... 

That didnt last for long though, cause stuff kept happening and my depression came back... Starting that tinychat room was probably the best idea I ever had in my entire life, cause it became a place where smoshers could hang out and just be themselves without being judged, and amazing people like Ian, Anthony, Corey, Melanie and Harry had been there! But I started to cut again a short while ago... Ian and Anthony are possibly the only reason I'm still here, and they are the reason I'm trying to get rid of this addiction. I'll probably never meet them in real life since I live in Portugal, but I will never lose hope and it will always be my dream.

 I love you, Ian and Anthony. Thank you for always being there for us.

Love, Cláudia <3

Neroli

Hey! My story is not as severe as some out there...but I would like to say it anyway. 

I haven't been a Smosher for SO LONG, but I've liked them for a while. More like loved. I've had a pretty crazy life. First of all, my parents hate each other. The fight, all the time. They were the reasons why I sometimes didn't do my homework, payed attention to anyone, or liked a lot of things. But I'm an only child, so I got a lot of attention from my parents. I had to convince them every week to not get divorced. My mom walked out on us 3 times but I chased her and got her back. My parents weren't a big fan of the internet, so I stayed away from it for a while. Second of all, I had so much pressure on me. From English school, to Japanese school, to piano, to ballet. Everyone wanted me to be the best. I couldn't take much of it. Although I love both ballet and piano, there was too much on my shoulders.

Then it was 4th grade. The worst year ever. I had a friend who shall not be named, and we would always talk and hang out and all of that. Until one day she decided to spread rumors, making me all alone. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE in the grade hated me. They laughed at me, said things, and glared at me. Even my old friends did. Everyone in the class said things about me and I acted like I was unaware of it. I didn't cut myself, but I did cut my hair. The next day I brought in a bag of the cut hair and shoved it into that girl's face. I walked away after, feeling like "What the hell did I just do?". But whatever. It got even worse. Some kid decided to make a song that went like this. "Neroli has no friends...no friends...no friends..." I still hear it, although now I made better friends in middle school. It reminds me all the time. 5th grade was better, but I still can't believe I was bullied so much.

Then later on guys started to like me. I went out with 2, but they weren't long. I didn't like dating. My friends all pressured me into it. Peer pressure sucks.../: Later on, girls started to call me player and slut. I didn't really know why because they guys I dated didn't even talk to me. And I've never cheated on somebody so...it's weird.

Then this year I had the most amazing boyfriend ever. (Well, 2011) He was the BEST. We went on dates, I went to his house a couple of times, (We watched movies, nothing else. .-.) And we would make everybody jealous. We hugged everyday after school and kissed occasionally. (Which is really amazing for our grade c:) But one day everything had changed. Without any awareness, he broke up with me. Out of the blue. I was really upset. I cried and cried. While he was smiling. The reason was...he didn't care for me anymore. I couldn't even get over the fact that we broke up. But eventually I got over it. I got over all these things because of one reason and one reason ONLY.

Smosh. A 5 letter word that means so much to me. I was on my iPod, bored and curious so I went on YouTube. I found a Smosh video. I didn't really like them but I clicked on it anyway. And I was laughing, smiling. It was four a clock in the morning, and I was laughing the whole night. Watching Smosh videos, falling in love with Anthony Padilla. (One of the most attractive men of history.) And of course Ian Hecox. (One of the most cutest men of history.) Everyday I would watch IanH or Smosh. It was becoming an obsession. I showed some friends and they soon became obsessed. I loved them. Their jokes, laughter, videos, everything. I really think they're amazing. The Smoshers are just as awesome! I wish they all came to a school called "Smoshers School". xD I was feeling a bit down because Smosh never replied to me on Twitter so I made a Tumblr post about it. People were actually sending me messages saying such nice things. I was crying, with tears of joy, of course. And one day they responded to me. Another day they followed. I was so happy I literally almost fell out the window. x3 I know this is way too long, but just wanted to get my story out there. :D