Dahlia

Ian and Anthony, if you happen to be reading this, I want you to know that you guys are the reason I'm still alive today. If you hadn't been there when I scrolled down the Youtube homepage, I might still be depressed, still dead inside or dead on the outside. You make me feel like I can be myself and do anything. And coming from me, that's reeeeeally saying something. You make me laugh, cry, fangirl and sing along and repeat lines. You make me smile and feel like I'm worth something. Even though you guys are a comedy duo. You just make me feel amazing. Now, though this story may seem somewhat long, please read it. I'd like to know that you know I'm here in the millions of faces of fans you have. Pleeeeease just read on. It'll be worth it. Just know that I love you guys.

Smosh. One word that I use to describe my life. To me they aren't just two guys who oddball make videos and make me laugh. They are a philosophy. A way of life. They are a life changing experience of mine. They've created my second family which is an escape when I don't want to be with my real family cause they(my real family) don't get me like they(my smosher family) do. Smosh has given me the opportunity to be myself and not be afraid to show it. They've given me hope and happiness. I know them as people that are real, not just on my computer screen.

Let's go back in time to the year so long ago, no one remembers it: 2007.

I was a depresed child though I was only 9. I suffered anxiety and insecurities. My parents were facing financial troubles and such. I had to worry about stuff kids shouldn't have to worry about. I was living a horrified life. I always wanted to be noticed, but I was the kind of girl that was to quiet and shy to speak out or be loud. I kind of just agreed and went along with what everyone said. I tried going to psyciatrists and I couldn't connect with any of them. They all bored me and they just seemed like they were helping me to get paid. Which, of course, was the case with every one that I went to. I went to 3 different people. I trudged upstairs after a grueling hour long session. I was finally allowed to use Youtube. My parents wanted me to wait until I was 10 but they just let me. I hardley used it but I decided to numb my brain for the next twelve hours with boring cat videos. I checked the suggestions box. There was a long list: high cat, drunk cat, ninja cat, cat attacks watermelon, boxman, ca- whaaaaat? What's Boxman? I clicked to video and decided to watch it. I was laughing and enjoying myself. I began to watch the rest of the videos and I was smiling. I hadn't smiled without forcing it in a long time. I spent hours watching the videos and I was happier than ever. What were they called? Oh, Smosh. Cool name. I didn't speak of my love for the two funniest comedians I'd ever seen until eighth grade and it made me more social and helped me find people that I had a lot in common with. Not just cause they loved Smosh, but we had the same sense of humor and other kinds of stuff. It even opened up a world to other Youtubers and more friendships. Like my friend at school, Itzel. She's like a sister to me. I guess you can say that really DID change my life.

Ian. Anthony. You guys mean so much to me. Changing me from a depressed person to a very happy person means you really are something special. You guys matter to me more than a lot of things. You stopped me from being sad and stressed. You guys mean everything to me.

--Dahlia, A Truely Sincere Fan <3

Grecia

So, my name is Grecia Morales and I live in Mexico.

I started watching Smosh like... just 7 months ago and they are just my life.

Yes, I'm only 13 years old but my entire life are 2 men from Sacramento, California.

I know about them because a friend of mine show me the video 'POKEMON IN REAL LIFE' and I just LOVE IT. It was on October from 2011. So, when I went back home, I turn on my computer and wrote 'Smosh' on the Youtube search bar and I clicked to the video 'FIRETRUCK'. That was my second video, I can still remember that.

Then, I started watching every single video on their channel. Nobody in my family actually understood my obsession with them and once my mom forbade me watch another video on Youtube and then she took my computer and hide it on her room. I cried like... for 2 days.

I was so sad, and then, 3 days later it was my birthday, So, my mom gave me my computer back and she also gave me an iPod, and i was so excited because I could see the Smosh videos whenever I want to.

Later that day, I turn on the laptop and the first thing I opened on Google Chrome was Smosh.com and I started watching every video that i missed in those days.

I was so happy, and I started downloading every single video with extras and bloopers and now my iPod has 10gb of videos and all are from Smosh.

I also was so distracted at school, because, I was thinking in which video was going to be uploaded that day and all that smosher stuff. Smosh, they’ve changed my life in so many ways.

They are my heroes, my inspirations, and I hope someday I will meet them.

If someday, they come here, on this blog, and they read this... I just want to tell them THANK YOU. Thank you for being that missing part of my life that i was looking for. Thanks for making me smile everyday, even when I'm a little depressed or I'm just mad, a video from Smosh can make me happy with just 2 or 3 minutes. I love you guys so much. Thanks for being you. I just want to tell them that they are more important to me than my freaking life, they're so important to me that, I could die for them. Anyways, who would miss a stupid 13 year old girl?

Then, one day, I know I'm gonna meet them. Or maybe, I'm gonna talk to them on twitter or I don't know where, but before I die, I want to know that Smosh actually read something from me. Because... they are my life... How can you live without them!?

One day, I was depressed 'cause everyone on High School were telling me that I was crazy and that I'll never meet them. They literally told me "Stop dreaming. They will never even notice you" that day... It was on Friday. That day I think about run away, go to another place, not in my house, not in school. I just wanted to be free.

After recess, in my classroom, a new student came in, and her name was Katie. I don't wanted to talk to anybody, but she came with me and tell me "Hi, I'm Katie, and you?" I told her my name, I told her my story and then we both were talking about our hobbies. I realized that she was going to be my best friend when she said "I love Smosh. Do you know who are they?" I literally jump of happiness and told her ALL the things I love from Smosh.

Right now she's next to me. Watching every single word I'm writing. And she's smiling at me. We are the best friends in the world. Sometimes she call me Anthony and I call her Ian. We are just so equal and perfect for each other. I love her, she's awesome.

I love her with my heart. Because thanks to her, I have a person who doesn't think I'm crazy for loving 2 men from other country. Later that day that I met her, she came into my house and we watch "LEGEND OF ZELDA RAP" and we laughted so hard and we download the song to our iPods.

You know what? I don't care what people say. SMOSH IS MY DAMN LIFE AND NOBODY IS GONNA CHANGE THAT. YOU DON'T LIKE IT? GTFO.

Thanks Smosh. For making us smoshers SMILE everyday.

Also, thanks Brandi for making us realized that we are not alone. WE LOVE YOU!

Myra

Hi, my name is Myra. I am thirteen. Let me start from the beginning:

I was abused my whole childhood. My dad abused us, I had a friend who threatened to murder me, and I was molested when I was three. I remember always running to my room crying. My dad would threaten to hurt me a lot. Sometimes he did hit me. Sometimes he would hit my mom. I remember sitting on my bed reading, trying to drown out the noise of them fighting, but it was impossible. When my brother was born, he had the same problems. He was loud, violent, and mean. My entire family was a mess. One thing I remember was when my parents fought one night, and I began to cry. My dad asked me what was wrong and I told him I was afraid he and my mom would get a divorce. He told me, and I quote, "No, of course not. Our love for each other is strong." A year later my mother took us out of the house and we moved in temporarily with her co-worker. Then the divorce. It was long and complicated, I had to change schools, and leave my friends behind. My brother only progressed in his violence. He would threaten me with knifes. He cut my mom with a pizza cutter. I had to lock myself in my room in fear of my life. When I started seventh grade, I began with no friends. I knew no one. I was so scared to see my dad somewhere that rarely did anything. I was twelve and barely even knew what YouTube was. Then I found out my dad was moving to Canada, cutting off all therapy, making it impossible to see him again. I went through a horrible phase of depression and was suicidal. It didn't help that my brother had to be taken to a mental institute three times. At the beginning of eight grade I had my group of friends. We were the weird ones. Then as we were depressed one day (my friend and I) my other friend showed us a video called "Charlie the drunk guinea pig". We were hooked. I hadn't laughed or felt so truly happy in years. Ever since, I have been eagerly awaiting videos by two amazing men, Ian and Anthony. I fell in immediate love. For the few minutes their videos lasted, it as happy. I could forget everything that ever happened to me. They've progressed do far from when I joined their family, and I'm proud to call myself a true Smosher. Ever since that day, I've been happy.

"You never know where life is going to take you, you never know where you're going to go, But you'll never be able to find out if you end it." ~ Shane Dawson

Kaz

When I was 7 (2007) my parents got devorced and my own mother abused me by hiding behind me while her and my dad fought I would constally go in my room and cry and then I snuck on the computer a new website Youtube was on the screen I searched around and I found some videos by someone named smosh I instatlly started laughing. I was hooked now I'm 12 in mesa haveing my dad spank me with a whip and I've tried to commit suicide many time but I'd watch a smosh video and I would stop what I'm doing me and my 3 friends love you and so do I my only dream is to meet you Ian and Anthony I love you so much if you read this please tweet me @kaziluvssmosh it would mean the world to me

Hannah

Hi, I'm Hannah (: and this is my story.

I remember when I was looking on the homescreen of Youtube. A very
strange video seemed to beckon me to watch. It was one of the Food
Battles. The video was just uploaded, I believe. Little did I know I
was going to die of laughter. I didn't think too much about it at that
point and decided to go to sleep because it was fairly late at night
when I watched it.

The next day, I went on to watch the video again. Then, I clicked on
the suggested video of the Pokemon Theme Song and I thought that was
the greatest thing in the world. At school, no one really was into it,
but I watched it anyways.

Fast forward about a year and a half. In October of 2011, I was
already a huge fan by then. I was always talking about them with my
friends (because they had gotten popular by then).

Then, my family found out my aunt died. We were actually close, but I
felt so guilty. The last time I talked to her, I told her she would
never be my aunt and that I hated her. This was probably one of the
worst times of my life. The friends I had weren't trying to even help
me deal with her death. At that point, I got so sick of everything.
Nothing was going well. My grades went down. I lost friend. I was
almost ready to just give up.

But before I did something stupid, I looked online just to see if
there was truly something to stick around for. Right on my homepage
for my gmail/ Youtube account was an Ian Is Bored. I watched the video
and laughed through the tears, feeling better from Ian and Anthony's
jokes and laughter. I went to sleep, holding on for one more day.

I haven't even thought about hurting myself since then.

Smosh literally saved me from myself, and I am so thankful for them
because I wouldnt be here, typing this. They changed my life.