Lizz

Hai! My name is Lizz. I'm 13. I am a smosh addict. :) And here's my little story for ya. 

I've suffered with depression for the past year. My life is a bit of a mess, and I've been trying to clean it up for a while, but it hasn't worked out for me. I've sadly turned to self-harm in many different forms. Cutting, starving, and just trying to make myself feel pain in anyway possible. I'm bullied for being different, and not as beautiful as the others around me. I'm pretty sure it was about the beginning of August that I had actually very highly considered ending my life. I mean, I didn't think anyone would care, because at that time no one would. So I invited the only people I loved over, just so I could have some time with them before I left. It was a Thursday, which meant for my smosh fangirl friend, a new Lunchtime With Smosh. She grabbed my computer the moment she came over and watched it. I watched it too, just so I could get as much time as I could with her. And for the first time in months, I laughed. Like, legit laughed. By the time I was over my stomach hurt. I was smiling. It almost felt weird, but I was happy about it. We watched IIB, LTWS, and just plain old smosh videos for about 3 hours. I was still watching even when they got tired of it. I never had to say goodbye to them for the last time.

I watched smosh videos all of the time. Come home from school? Watch smosh videos. Need to sleep? Oh well, watch smosh videos. Want to cut? Watch smosh videos. Want to end your life? Watch. Smosh. Videos. It's like my remedy, and I love smosh so much.

So then I made a twitter, cause I had heard that smosh replied to people there. And after about a month, I did get a reply from them. It filled me up with so much happiness. I kept the twitter for that purpose and got many tweets from the smosh account. But I still had those scary suicidal thoughts. I still cut. I was scared I would never be happy for more than when I was watching. Until December.

December was probably the highlight of my depression time. I saw Ian and Anthony on tinychat, which was the only think I thought about for weeks. Corey (teleporting fat guy) had told me he loved me. Ian tweeted me a few times. But the most special thing to me was when he replied to me on my post about depression. Those words are the most special thing in the world to me. They've helped me so much. So, so, much. I wrote the advice and put it on my wall. I wrote the advice on a piece of paper and don't go anywhere without it. It's the thing I look at if I ever feel alone or that I'll never get through the day.

I felt like smosh knew me. They'd tweeted me many times. I felt like they liked me. And that made me smile.

Smosh has basically got me through everything since I first started watching. They've got me through all the name calling and bullying. They got me through my grandmother's death. They got me through my best friend trying to commit suicide 7 times. They got me through all the pain I've felt. I feel like I owe my life to them.

Please NEVER stop smiling, laughing, being stupid, talking, and most importantly, PLEASE DON'T STOP MAKING VIDEOS.

You guys are life savers, and I don't mean the candy. Thank you. So much.

Elena

So this is the story of how smosh changed my life.

  When i was 4 my mom beat me up many times cause i wouldn't listen to her and that i used to go on my laptop a lot. I cried several times and was unhappy until the age 6. She always locked me in my room. Then at school, my best friend Kate in 4th grade showed me some old smosh videos that made me start using the internet more. I got a feeling of where i wanted to laugh.......I've never been this happy before in my life.....I started talking, laughing, and and acting much more nicer. But before all that, i honestly was thinking of killing myself cause i thought i had the worst life ever.....I've cried and cried several times but i started cutting when i was 10. My cuts have healed but there is still marks on my arm. After i turned 11 i stopped crying and my depression got over.....my mom stopped beating me up and i felt happy. By that day, i knew Ian and Anthony changed my life completely. I felt more alive and happy. I actually stopped thinking of killing myself. So i would like to thank them....for everything they've done. I love you guys.
Reasons why smosh changed my life:

1. They make me laugh; my tears of pain turned into tears of joy.
2. After i started acting more happy from watching smosh videos, my mom didn't beat me up since then.
3. I started talking about smosh at school and now, i'm the class clown of my class. :)
4. Because of smosh, i stopped cutting and crying.
5. I actually felt like i meant something to this world.
6. I've never been so loved and happy since i've stared watching smosh vids.
7. My whole life turned from a dark cloud to a sunny world.
8. Ian and Anthony mean everything to me.
9. They made me laugh and changed my life A LOT.
And
10...... SMOSH RULES.

 I would like to thank Ian and Anthony for changing my life, making me happy, and making me stop cutting and crying. I love you guys. ♥

    -Elena

P.S. I don't care if you like it or not.. I'm just telling my feelings to smosh. I love them. ♥♥♥ :)

Lanie

Okay(: well, my story is long.

For starters when I was born my mother was a drug addict. My dad was always out of the picture. I was living in a one bedroom house with my mom and new born brother, I guess you could say I wasn't  treated correctly, so after a while my dad remarried my stepmom and she has been taking care of me.. It's difficult now because I'm still not treated like a teenage girl should be. 

I was so depressed I had eating dissorders and keep in mind both of my parents are in the military, so they were always gone, and four years ago I saw smosh on the computer and I have been obsessed with them ever since. 

And a big thanks to smosh(:<3 I love them.

Claudia

How did smosh help me? Well, I guess you can say they saved my life.

A little over a year ago, my life was a mess. I was depressed and there was no one I could trust enough to talk to about my problems... I went on youtube and was searching random things when an IanH video popped up. That video made me laugh like I hadnt in a long time. It wasnt a fake laugh like usual, I was actually happy for those few minutes, while I was watching those two guys be hilarious and retarded (no offense XD). I fell in love after I found the smosh channel. After a few months of watching smosh, I decided to make a Twitter account. I mean, why not? It's not like I had to tell anyone or like anyone would ever find out about it! I followed all the smosh accounts and a little after that, a few smoshers followed me. I started talking to some people and they were the nicest and most accepting people I had ever met! I finnaly felt accepted, and like I actually belonged. 

None of the crappy things about my life went away. Both my parents were still unemployed, my dad still lived on the other side of the world with his wife (who I hate), I was still getting bullied at school, etc... But at least I could run away from all that and just be happy and laugh for a few minutes, while watching Ian and Anthony be themselves.

 I started cutting before watching smosh, and they were the reason I stopped. A few months ago, I was in my tinychat room with some of my best smosher friends, and we were hanging out and having fun! As a joke, we tweeted Ian the link, and kept on being retarded and having fun by ourselves. A guest went in the room and changed his name to "ian". We all started laughing and called him a troll, cause I mean... Why would Ian ever want to go to our tinychat, right? Just so we could laugh a little more, I gave him the broadcasting password. He said his camera wasnt working and we laughed even harder. Then the name ian appeared on camera, and so did Ian's face. We all froze for a few secounds thinking it was a picture or a video, untill he waved at us... I actually started crying and shaking, because that felt like a dream come true. I was meeting the person who saved my life. My inspiration. That same night, Corey (aka Teleporting Fat Guy) and Ethan (aka Harry) went on tinychat, and Anthony went on the next day. For a few days, I couldnt think of anything else, and I felt like I was in heaven... 

That didnt last for long though, cause stuff kept happening and my depression came back... Starting that tinychat room was probably the best idea I ever had in my entire life, cause it became a place where smoshers could hang out and just be themselves without being judged, and amazing people like Ian, Anthony, Corey, Melanie and Harry had been there! But I started to cut again a short while ago... Ian and Anthony are possibly the only reason I'm still here, and they are the reason I'm trying to get rid of this addiction. I'll probably never meet them in real life since I live in Portugal, but I will never lose hope and it will always be my dream.

 I love you, Ian and Anthony. Thank you for always being there for us.

Love, Cláudia <3

Neroli

Hey! My story is not as severe as some out there...but I would like to say it anyway. 

I haven't been a Smosher for SO LONG, but I've liked them for a while. More like loved. I've had a pretty crazy life. First of all, my parents hate each other. The fight, all the time. They were the reasons why I sometimes didn't do my homework, payed attention to anyone, or liked a lot of things. But I'm an only child, so I got a lot of attention from my parents. I had to convince them every week to not get divorced. My mom walked out on us 3 times but I chased her and got her back. My parents weren't a big fan of the internet, so I stayed away from it for a while. Second of all, I had so much pressure on me. From English school, to Japanese school, to piano, to ballet. Everyone wanted me to be the best. I couldn't take much of it. Although I love both ballet and piano, there was too much on my shoulders.

Then it was 4th grade. The worst year ever. I had a friend who shall not be named, and we would always talk and hang out and all of that. Until one day she decided to spread rumors, making me all alone. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE in the grade hated me. They laughed at me, said things, and glared at me. Even my old friends did. Everyone in the class said things about me and I acted like I was unaware of it. I didn't cut myself, but I did cut my hair. The next day I brought in a bag of the cut hair and shoved it into that girl's face. I walked away after, feeling like "What the hell did I just do?". But whatever. It got even worse. Some kid decided to make a song that went like this. "Neroli has no friends...no friends...no friends..." I still hear it, although now I made better friends in middle school. It reminds me all the time. 5th grade was better, but I still can't believe I was bullied so much.

Then later on guys started to like me. I went out with 2, but they weren't long. I didn't like dating. My friends all pressured me into it. Peer pressure sucks.../: Later on, girls started to call me player and slut. I didn't really know why because they guys I dated didn't even talk to me. And I've never cheated on somebody so...it's weird.

Then this year I had the most amazing boyfriend ever. (Well, 2011) He was the BEST. We went on dates, I went to his house a couple of times, (We watched movies, nothing else. .-.) And we would make everybody jealous. We hugged everyday after school and kissed occasionally. (Which is really amazing for our grade c:) But one day everything had changed. Without any awareness, he broke up with me. Out of the blue. I was really upset. I cried and cried. While he was smiling. The reason was...he didn't care for me anymore. I couldn't even get over the fact that we broke up. But eventually I got over it. I got over all these things because of one reason and one reason ONLY.

Smosh. A 5 letter word that means so much to me. I was on my iPod, bored and curious so I went on YouTube. I found a Smosh video. I didn't really like them but I clicked on it anyway. And I was laughing, smiling. It was four a clock in the morning, and I was laughing the whole night. Watching Smosh videos, falling in love with Anthony Padilla. (One of the most attractive men of history.) And of course Ian Hecox. (One of the most cutest men of history.) Everyday I would watch IanH or Smosh. It was becoming an obsession. I showed some friends and they soon became obsessed. I loved them. Their jokes, laughter, videos, everything. I really think they're amazing. The Smoshers are just as awesome! I wish they all came to a school called "Smoshers School". xD I was feeling a bit down because Smosh never replied to me on Twitter so I made a Tumblr post about it. People were actually sending me messages saying such nice things. I was crying, with tears of joy, of course. And one day they responded to me. Another day they followed. I was so happy I literally almost fell out the window. x3 I know this is way too long, but just wanted to get my story out there. :D

Kagome

This is my story. I’ll try not to drag it on for ever.

So first, I bit. I would just clench onto my arms and feel the pain of my teeth sharply sinking in. But soon I felt that the marks were too ugly and the pain wasn’t enough. So I quickly went over to cutting. In the beginning, a few scratches at a time but before I knew it, I would cut endless lines up and down my thigh. I don’t like to look because it reminds me how trapped I sometimes am.

When I am alone, I like to think about why I cut and why I can’t be normal or happy about life. And the answer is I don’t know. Sometimes I yell at myself in front of the mirror and call myself dumb or ugly. I tell myself that the world will never care and I can never be good enough. Why do I do this? I have no freaking clue some days. But I do know why I can laugh. It is because of the two greatest guys in history. Smosh.

I had known about Smosh a little bit before I had started self-harm but wasn’t very in to it. I had only watched one or two videos by then and didn’t realize how amazing they were. Then one day, I saw Paranormal Easy Bake Oven and bursted out in joy and smiles. All I remember is that for the next few days, I just sat at my computer and watched more and more. Then I went on to Ian is Bored and Mail-time. Finally, a whole two months had past between the last time I had cut.

I eventually did cut again. The marks are still there and new ones appear from time to time but my life is so much better now that I have Smosh. Sure I’ll never be able to tell Ian I think he is hilarious or Anthony that he is great, but what they have done for me is more than enough. And if by chance, they are reading this, thank you <33.

Sami

Okay. So, my story starts when I was 12.

It was a year after the economical crash occurred and I was just starting middle school. I knew NO ONE at the school, and we had just moved into a new house a month before. I wore glasses, and my teeth were really messed up. People repelled from me. I didn't mind since it was the first day of school. "I'll make friends." I thought. I did. But I soon grew distant and was alone again.

Then I started getting news that we were gonna lose our house. There was so much stress at home, and at school trying to fit in.

Pretty soon we were given notice that we were gonna be forced out of my house in about a month, which made my parents file bankruptcy. We barely got by. But gladly my mom got a new job with better pay, which meant we could keep the house.

But then kids at school started getting REALLY nasty.

I was a loner.

With no one to talk to.

But then one day, I got so pissed I actually thought about running away.

No one cared

No one needed me.

But then I sat down and tried to calm myself down. Coincidentally my parents weren't home so I went on YouTube. I had never been on there before and was curious what was on there. Then I saw a Smosh video on the Homepage. I watched it and for once, felt happy. They lifted my spirits up.

Pretty soon Smosh is what kept me going.

And for some reason, I felt less shy. Like I could be myself. Smosh made me who I am today.

Without Smosh I wouldn't feel unwanted, and shy.

Somehow that helped my mood, making me seem more willing to make friends at school.

Pretty soon I did.

And now I'm a happy 14 year old with friends who care about me in school AND on Twitter.

My Twitter friends are the best, they relate to me and make me laugh and I'm thankful for that <3

Thank you Smosh.

You mean so much to me.